Life Without David Bowie

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Photograph (c) Mick Rock

It’s hard to believe that it will soon be a year since David Bowie passed from this world into the next–nearly as difficult as imagining, back on that darkest of days in January 2016, what the world would be like without him. Well, we’ve all since gotten a taste of life without Bowie over these past 11+ months, and it hasn’t been pretty. In fact, the whole of 2016 was very much like a poorly behaved child who acts out when he doesn’t get what he wants.

Oh, 2016 you’ve gotten way more than you deserved.

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Bob Masse limited edition giclee

For me, the past year was spent stuffing the recesses of my empty life with music and memorabilia; a futile search for something to make me feel all warm and fuzzy inside–for the psychological spackle that would fill the huge gaping holes in my soul. I busied myself replacing original Bowie vinyl with CDs, building a humongous digital playlist to play over and over, day and night, in an effort to soothe the inner pain and immense feeling of loss. While that helped a tiny bit to take the edge off of the all-consuming grief, I continued my quest for peace by acquiring (somewhat) affordable artwork to display throughout the house, and am currently toying with dedicating a room (my home office) to all things Bowie.

I’m obsessed, much like I was several decades ago when I first discovered this incredible being who made such an impression upon me that it led to the life-altering decision to clean up my act and become a productive part of the human race. A small cog in a big machine, perhaps, but I didn’t end up killing myself, which is what my abusive habits would have surely yielded. And the ultimate prize was being smacked upside the head with the fact that it was OK to be “different.” Not only OK, it was downright cathartic. All because of one impossibly talented and other-worldly creature named David Bowie who flounced into my life on red patent leather platform boots, dressed in the finest of glam, and adorned with the most exquisite make-up palette ever. Even when he eventually eschewed the glam accoutrements, and let his inner Bowie shine brightly, he was always a vision of beauty, peace, and artistry untouched by any other.

tattoo_finishedI’ve spent hundreds of hours poring through YouTube videos, watching classic David Bowie performances, interviews, and cameos and collecting photographs from the Internet. I’ve invested in limited-edition artwork heralding Bowie’s physical beauty, in an effort to always remember him in a perfect light, frozen in time. My first-ever tattoo, inked last May, is a Ziggy caricature along with Blackstar, signifying the “beginning” to the “end.” I even brought Ziggy Stardust photographs to the nearby hair salon and asked for a Ziggy-esque shag. I’ve not yielded quite yet to the ginger color, but that may be achieved in the not-too-distant future.

Even though I continually strive to acquire Bowie-related “things,” something is obviously missing–because I still feel like shit. I felt much the same way when my husband Dan died over 4 years ago, and I should have known from experience that it never does get better, no matter what the “cure” appears to be. But, I honestly thought that with Bowie the hurt would ease up much faster because, after all, I didn’t know him personally. Or perhaps I did–more than I could ever have imagined.

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Photograph (C) Jimmy King

David Bowie laid himself open, raw and uncensored, physically and spiritually, for all to see and to share. He let us glimpse into the darkest reaches of his soul through his music, his numerous interviews, his recollections, his personal relationships, his vast collections of books and art, his collaborations, his frustrations, his passion, and his unequaled genius. We all knew him intimately, because he allowed us into his life. It was a bit of a shock when he backed away from the spotlight for nearly a decade, but we also understood, because he made us privy to how much he loved his family and wanted more time with them. The only thing he decided not to share with us was that he was dying. Why? Only David Bowie knows for sure, but I think he wanted to spare us, and him, the worry and despair that such news would bring. Instead, he decided to throw himself into everything he had the strength to tackle, and allowed us to go along blindly and naively with our own lives, without the burden of opening the news each day to see if the end had come.

So, when it came, it hit us hard. We weren’t prepared. But even if we had known, it still would not have prevented that huge, sucking hole that opened up in the universe and swallowed our Starman, catapulting him out of our lives and into a dimension that we, the living, can never fully comprehend. He may be physically gone, but his legacy lives on–through his vast music catalog, his images, both video and still, his band mates, his friends, his family, and of course, through us, his devoted fans.

And, I’ll continue to build my own personal collection of Bowie memorabilia, knowing fully that it will never make me feel completely whole again; but also understanding that if I can’t have the flesh and blood Bowie in my little corner of the universe, the tangible mementos of his brilliant life will just have to do.

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Marsbar Playlist ~ 12-18-2016

December 18, 2016

bigmars1David Marsden streaming live via the Internet. Join the fun and get some interesting (and always entertaining) information at the forum on Marsden Global.

Be sure to catch David and an eclectic collection of guest DJs streaming 24/7 on NYTheSpirit.com. Experience music unique to David Marsden and his tenure at CFNY-FM–music that defines not only an era, but a lifetime.

Typically, David presents a live show from 8PM until midnight on Saturday and Sunday nights; but, you just never know when he’ll pop in during the week.

Here is the complete list, thanks to late-night help from JerusalemSlim (and some name-check assistance from TheBarron) who stayed until 1AM to cover David’s extra-long show:

Allen Toussaint Orchestra – Close Encounters Of The Third Kind
Barclay James Harvest – Child Of The Universe
B.B. King – Lonesome Christmas
Beloved – Sweet Harmony
Bernard Hermann feat. Rod Serling – Twilight Zone Theme (Season One)
Blackmore’s Night – Rainbow Eyes
Boy George – The Crying Game
Carole Pope & Sara T. Russell – Some Velvet Morning
Choirboys – Tears In Heaven
Cocteau Twins – Know Who You Are At Every Age
Coldplay – Lovers In Japan (Osaka Sun Mix)
Colourfield – Monkey In Winter
Comsat Angels – I’m Falling
Conjure One – Center Of The Sun (Chilled Out Remix)
David Bowie – Lazarus
David Usher – Black Black Heart
Dee Long – Good Night Universe
Duran Duran – The Chauffeur
Electric Flag – Killing Floor
Elio E Le Storie Tese – Christmas With The Yours
Flying Burrito Brothers – Hippie Boy
Freedom Or Death – Nobody Listens
Grace Jones – The Apple Stretching
Hooters – All You Zombies
INXS – Original Sin (12″ mix)
Jeff Buckley – Bird On A Wire
Jimi Hendrix Experience – The Wind Cries Mary
John Cooper Clarke – Beasley Street
John Martyn – Glorious Fool
Joywave – Traveling At The Speed Of Light
Kane & Potvin – Going Home
King Curtis – Harlem Nocturne
Klaatu – Calling Occupants Of Interplanetary Craft
Leonard Cohen – Dance Me To The End Of Love
Lighthouse – 1849
Lou Reed – Ride Sally Ride
Marianne Faithfull – Vagabond Ways
Michael Been (aka The Call) – What’s Happened To You
Moby feat. Patti Labelle – One Of These Mornings
Nick Cave And The Bad Seeds/Kylie Minogue – Where The Wild Roses Grow
Of Monsters And Men – Empire
Parachute Club – Rise Up (Extended Dance Version)
Pink Floyd – Louder Than Words
Prince – Moonbeam Levels
Rob Stuart – A Beautiful Thing
Roderick Falconer – Play It Again
Rod Stewart – Country Comfort
Rolling Stones – I Can’t Quit You Baby
Slave to the SQUAREwave – Casino
Strange Advance – Worlds Away
Stranglers – You’ll Always Reap What You Sow
Toni Childs – House Of Hope
Tony Joe White – The Guitar Don’t Lie
Trans-Siberian Orchestra – Dream Child (A Christmas Dream)
Ultravox – Vienna (12″ mix)
Velvet Underground – Rock And Roll
Willy DeVille – I Call Your Name
XTC – Dear God

 

Marsbar Playlist ~ 12-17-2016

December 17, 2016

bigmars1David Marsden streaming live via the Internet. Join the fun and get some interesting (and always entertaining) information at the forum on Marsden Global.

Be sure to catch David and an eclectic collection of guest DJs streaming 24/7 on NYTheSpirit.com. Experience music unique to David Marsden and his tenure at CFNY-FM–music that defines not only an era, but a lifetime.

Typically, David presents a live show from 8PM until midnight on Saturday and Sunday nights; but, you just never know when he’ll pop in during the week.

Here is the complete list, thanks to the late-night efforts of half-frozen TheBarron:

Arcade Fire – We Exist
Band/Dr John – Such A Night
Bobby “Blue” Bland – Ain’t No Sunshine When She’s Gone
Bobby Bazini – Summer Is Gone
David Gilmour – Faces Of Stone
Dee Long – Good Night Universe
Frank Zappa – I Am The Slime
Frankie Goes To Hollywood – Welcome To The Pleasuredome
Freddie Mercury – Time
Free – Cakes
Freur – Doot Doot
Genesis – The Carpet Crawlers
Ghostwriters – Ready Steady Go
Heaven – Gracious
Japan – Transmission
Jeff Beck & Rod Stewart – People Get Ready
Johnny Warman/Peter Gabriel – Screaming Jets
Jordan John – George & Sylvester (The Funky Nation)
Lou Reed – Intro/Sweet Jane
Love & Rockets – So Alive
Matchstick Afro – Fink Fank Fonk
Moody Blues – Are You Sitting Comfortably
New Order/Depeche Mode – Bizarre Love Triangle/Strangelove (mash-up)
Peter Gabriel – Big Time (extended remix)
Peter Murphy – Surrendered
Prince – Rocknroll Loveaffair
Propaganda – P:Machinery (P:Polish Version)
Psychedelic Furs – Heartbreak Beat (extended mix)
Rammstein – Los
Re-Flex – The Politics Of Dancing
Rob Stuart – A Beautiful Thing
Roger Waters – Towers Of Faith
Sparks – Kiss Me Quick
Status Quo – It’s Christmas Time
Steve Hillage – Radio
Tommy Green Jr. – You Don’t Need No Mistletoe (If You Can Sing Christmas Songs)
Touch And Go – Straight To…Number One (Dreamcatcher’s Mix)
Ultravox – Brilliant
Underworld – Cowgirl
Violent Kin – Velvet Hideout
Waterboys – A Home In The Meadows
Xprime – Closer
Yello – 30’000 Days

 

Marsbar Playlist ~ 12-11-2016

December 11, 2016

bigmars1David Marsden streaming live via the Internet. Join the fun and get some interesting (and always entertaining) information at the forum on Marsden Global.

Be sure to catch David and an eclectic collection of guest DJs streaming 24/7 on NYTheSpirit.com. Experience music unique to David Marsden and his tenure at CFNY-FM–music that defines not only an era, but a lifetime.

Typically, David presents a live show from 8PM until midnight on Saturday and Sunday nights; but, you just never know when he’ll pop in during the week.

Due to technical difficulties, the list is being updated much later than it should be. Many thanks to TheBarron for his late-night assistance:

69 Eyes – Feel Berlin
Al Stewart – Lord Grenville
Arcade Fire – We Exist
Beth Hart/Joe Bonamassa – I’ll Take Care Of You
Box – Closer Together
Bruce Springsteen – Sad Eyes
Collide – Tempted (Conjure One Mix)
Concrete Blonde – Everybody Knows
Cut Copy – Need You Now
Deborah Harry & Iggy Pop – Well, Did You Evah?
Dee Long – Good Night Universe
Deftones – Drive
Dream Academy – The Love Parade
Elsiane – Prosaic
Emerson, Lake & Palmer – 21st Century Schizoid Man (1993 Remake)
Emerson, Lake & Palmer – C’est La Vie
Emerson, Lake & Palmer – I Believe In Father Christmas
Emerson, Lake & Palmer – Karn Evil 9: 1st Impression – Part 2
Gary Moore – The Thrill Is Gone (Live)
Genesis – I Know What You Like (in my wardrobe)
Joe Jackson – Real Men
King Harvest – Dancing In The Moonlight
Lee Michaels – Do You Know What I Mean
Lemon Jelly – Elements
Leonard Cohen – You Want It Darker
Long John Baldry – Flying
Orchestral Manoeuvres In The Dark – Maid Of Orleans
Paul Weller – You Do Something To Me
Peter Gabriel/Kate Bush – Don’t Give UP
Peter Murphy – Surrendered
Pink Floyd – Shine On You Crazy Diamond
Richard Strange & The Engine Room – Damascus (Strange Dub)
Rob Stuart – A Beautiful Thing
Robbie Robertson – Testimony
Sigue Sigue Sputnik – Bullet With Butterfly Wings
Simple Minds – Don’t You (Forget About Me)
Strange Advance – Worlds Away
Supertramp – Goodbye Stranger
The Moody Blues – Melancholy Man
Touch And Go – Let’s Go Straight To Number One (Dreamcatcher’s Remix)
Ultravox – Flow
Vangelis/Jean Michel Jarre – Metallic Rain

Marsbar Playlist ~ 12-10-2016

December 10, 2016

bigmars1David Marsden streaming live via the Internet. Join the fun and get some interesting (and always entertaining) information at the forum on Marsden Global.

Be sure to catch David and an eclectic collection of guest DJs streaming 24/7 on NYTheSpirit.com. Experience music unique to David Marsden and his tenure at CFNY-FM–music that defines not only an era, but a lifetime.

Typically, David presents a live show from 8PM until midnight on Saturday and Sunday nights; but, you just never know when he’ll pop in during the week.

Here is the complete list, thanks to post-10 PM assistance from JerusalemSlim:

Art Of Noise feat. Tom Jones – Kiss
Belouis Some – Imagination
Billy Idol – Merry Christmas Baby
Bobby Bazini – Summer Is Gone
Boomtown Rats – Up All Night
David Bowie – Starman
David Gray – Sail Away
David Sylvian and Ryuichi Sakamoto – Forbidden Colours
Dee Long – Good Night Universe
Fall Out Boy – Thnks Fr Th Mmrs
Frankie Goes To Hollywood – Rage Hard
Free* – F.L.R.
Goldfrapp/Norman Greenbaum/ZZ Top – Ooh La Grange In The Sky (mash-up)
Heaven 17 – Let Me Go (12″ version)
Hooverphonic – Anger Never Dies
Iggy Pop – Real Wild Child (Wild One; extended version)
Joe Bonamassa – Drive
John Lennon/Plastic Ono Band – Instant Karma!
Jordan John – Somewhere In The Night
Kane & Potvin – Going Home
Leonard Cohen – The Future
Manchester United F.C. & Status Quo – Come On You Reds
Nena/Rammstein – 99 Luftballons/Du Hast (mash-up)
Neurotic Wreck – Never Enough
New Order – True Faith (Shep Pettibone remix)
OneRepublic – Love Runs Out
Peter Gabriel – Big Time (extended remix)
Porcupine Tree – Collapse The Light Into Earth
Pink Floyd – Louder Than Words
Pretty Lights – Finally Moving
Pursuit Of Happiness – I’m An Adult Now
Rob Stuart – A Beautiful Thing
Slave to the SQUAREwave – London Baby
Sly & The Family Stone – Family Affair
Stranglers – Skin Deep
Teenage Head – Let’s Shake
Tin Star Orphans – Jaw Wired Shut
Toni Childs – House Of Hope
Visage – The Damned Don’t Cry (extended mix)
Wild Cherry – Play That Funky Music
Willy DeVille – I Call Your Name
Within Temptation – Our Farewell
Yello – Rubberbandman (Rubber mix)

 

Marsbar Playlist ~ 12-4-2016

December 4, 2016

bigmars1David Marsden streaming live via the Internet. Join the fun and get some interesting (and always entertaining) information at the forum on Marsden Global.

Be sure to catch David and an eclectic collection of guest DJs streaming 24/7 on NYTheSpirit.com. Experience music unique to David Marsden and his tenure at CFNY-FM–music that defines not only an era, but a lifetime.

Typically, David presents a live show from 8PM until midnight on Saturday and Sunday nights; but, you just never know when he’ll pop in during the week.

Here is the complete list, thanks to super-duper late night assistance from JerusalemSlim:

Alabama 3 – Hotel California
Beth Hart/Joe Bonamassa – I’ll Take Care Of You
Bobby Bazini – Summer Is Gone
Box – Crying Out Loud For Love
Brian Eno/John Cale – Spinning Away
Bruce Springsteen – Sad Eyes
Clash – Jimmy Jazz
Cure – Lullaby (extended remix)
Dee Long – Good Night Universe
Dwight Twilley Band – Sleeping
Elliott Murphy feat. Bruce Springsteen – Everything I Do (Leads Me Back To You)
Free* – F.L.R.
Genesis – Cinema Show
Harlem Gospel Singers – Walking In Memphis
Joe Bonamassa – Blues Deluxe
Johnny Cash – Hurt
Ken Tobias – Soul Tune
King Crimson – I Talk To The Wind
Lighthouse – 1849
Little Richard – Good Golly Miss Molly
Lukas Graham – You’re Not There
Manfred Mann’s Earth Band – Spirits In The Night
Mark Knopfler – Millionaire Blues
Motors – Love And Loneliness
Nilsson – Without You
Orchestral Manoeuvres In The Dark – Secret (extended mix)
Peter Murphy – A Strange Kind Of Love (extended remix)
Phil Manzanera/801 – City Of Light
Public Service Broadcasting – Everest
Red Sun Horizon – Red Sun Horizon
Rob Stuart – A Beautiful Thing
Robbie Robertson – Unbound
Roger Waters – Radio Waves
Rolling Stones – All Of Your Love
Rolling Stones – I Can’t Quit You Baby
Rolling Stones – Little Rain
Roy Orbison – In Dreams
Scissor Sisters – Return To Oz
Sebastian Kole – Home
Sisters Of Mercy – This Corrosion (extended)
Taj Mahal – Take A Giant Step
Talking Heads – Burning Down The House
Ultravox – Love’s Great Adventure
Underworld – Low Burn
Wallflowers feat. Mick Jones – Reboot The Mission
Willy DeVille – Needles And Pins

 

Marsbar Playlist ~ 12-3-2016

December 3, 2016

bigmars1David Marsden streaming live via the Internet. Join the fun and get some interesting (and always entertaining) information at the forum on Marsden Global.

Be sure to catch David and an eclectic collection of guest DJs streaming 24/7 on NYTheSpirit.com. Experience music unique to David Marsden and his tenure at CFNY-FM–music that defines not only an era, but a lifetime.

Typically, David presents a live show from 8PM until midnight on Saturday and Sunday nights; but, you just never know when he’ll pop in during the week.

Here is the complete list, thanks to greatly appreciated late night assistance from TheBarron:
Age Of Electric – Keys
Beck – Heart Is A Drum
Blancmange – Blind Vision (12″ mix)
Bob Geldof – This Is The World Calling
Bobby Bazini – Blood’s Thicker Than Water
Brandon Flowers – I Can Change
Broken English – Do You Really Want Me Back?
Chainsmokers – #SELFIE (Instrumental Mix)
Dead By April – Love Like Blood
Dee Long – Good Night Universe
Delerium – Lost And Found (Blank & JonesLate Night Remix)
Depeche Mode – Enjoy The Silence (Harmonium)
DJ Kodi – Purple Rain
Fashion – Love Shadow
Freddy Mercury – Time
Free* – F.L.R.
Health – Hurt Yourself
Howard Devoto – The Rainy Season
Hunter Valentine – Van City
Imagine Dragons – Shots
Japan – Transmission
KLF – Last Train To Transcentral (Razormaid Mix)
Love & Rockets – Ball Of Confusion
Midnight Oil – Power And The Passion
Moby – Lie Down In Darkness
Nash The Slash – Dance After Curfew (Slow Version)
NeuroRythm – The Voice Of Dissent
New Order – Plastic
New Pornographers – Champions Of Red Wine
OneRepublic – Kids (Seeb remix)
Pet Shop Boys – Go West (2001 Remastered Version)
Phil Manzanera – 1960 Caracas
Pink Floyd – Talkin’ Hawkin’
Prince – Moonbeam Levels
Project Pitchfork – I Live Your Dream (Gary Numan remix)
Propaganda – P:Machinery (Beta)
Psychedelic Furs – Heartbreak Beat (extended mix)
Rammstein – Reise, Reise
Rob Stuart – A Beautiful Thing
Scissor Sisters – Invisible Light (Stuart Price Us 12″ remix)
Slave to the SQUAREwave – Healing Hands
Spoons – Nova Heart (Dark Before Dawn Mix)
Stranglers – Golden Brown
Tangerine Dream – House Of The Rising Sun
Toni Childs – The Dead Are Dancing
Visage – The Damned Don’t Cry (extended mix)
Wild Nothing – The Body In Rainfall